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Name: Peter
Country: United States
State: New York
Metro: Rockland
Birthday: 11/15/1984
Gender: Male
Interests: God, computers, God, hanging out, music, God, TV, God, being random, God, girls, God, moo, God
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  Peterguy
Member Since:
6/16/2004
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| Dear Lord... I love you so much... I really really do. I want nothing more than to be just like you. I want my heart to beat to yours. I want to love the way you love. I want to see the way you see. I want to be fully yours and have nothing stand in my way. Make me more like you. Drive me to my knees and let your love overflow thru me. What can I do without you? How can I breathe? or blink? or walk? I cannot, for you rule over all, and as I surrender more and more to you, you begin to rule me by my own choice. Thank you for letting me choose to love you instead of forcing me too. I do love you... Everyday I fear about the things in my life, the uncertainties... but somehow I know you will take care of it if I lean on you. Lord help me to make new meaningful relationships here at nyack. Give me friendships that are deep with people who are madly in love with you. Inspire me, let me grow. Help me not to offend other people when I critisize out of love. Help me to be gentle and caring. Help me to show your love thru me. Let your love flow out of me please... I want to grow deeper with you... please allow me to. Please help me to stop sinning so much so I can be in your embrace more and be safe more. I hate when I do the things I don't want to do... but I do them anyway and then I feel hypocritical and it makes me think if I really love you as much as i say i do. Search my heart and cleanse me from all wickedness. Purify me and let satan have no stronghold in me any longer. Draw me deep into your presence. Thank you Jesus for you hear my prayers and I have faith in you. Love,
Pete | | |
| people come into your life and make an impact on you, some more profound than others. Some people make you realize how messed up u r, only then to later realize that u are normal and they are the ones messed up. some people entice you to sin while you find yourself fighting your very being. struggle after struggle, fight after fight
how much longer until i see the light?
Jesus you are here, Jesus draw me near
I want to be wrapped in your arms... thats where i belong
thats where i belong
nowhere else
just in you Lord
my soul cries out for you
my body thirsts
for your overflowing love... God of mercy help me fight my sin help me to be strong and to finsih and win.
Help me to trample satan underneath my feet
Help me to have the victory thru you and not be beat
i need you i need you i need you i need i need you i need you oh how i need you LORD. Break the chains crush the enemy.... release me and set me free. I want to be an example of you... help me be patient and kind and slow to anger.... God... oh my God, draw near... as i tremble in fear... make your strength mine | | |
| last night I hung out with arlene again, she took me to her friend maria's apartment. I wasn't expecting that when I got there there would be about 7 deaf people there. Imagine this, your in a tiny room with seven deaf people constantly signing back and forth and trying to communicate with you as well, it would make you feel weird, wouldn't it? That's how I felt. Also before I went there I was with arlene and we went to this church with her family and we were downstairs in the basement aka the youth room. They had all just gotten back from a retreat and what eneded up happeneing was all these kids saw me sigining to arlene so at least 20 (probably more like 25 or 30) youth all came up to me and her and started aking me how to sign ghtings and also having me sign certain thigns to arlene. They wanted me and her to teach them signs, the attention was kinda overwhelming, in fact there were so many kids that the youth director pulled me aside and said that he sees that his youth has this huge sudden desie to learn sign language so he wanted to know if I'd be willing to talk to the youth for an hour about deaf culture and relating it to the Christian faith somehow. I told him I'd thinkn about it, I'm supposed to email him back Today we have a 3 hour delay for school. For me this is the equivelant as a day off cuz all my classes are uring the delay, hehe. That means I have all day to do nothing, hoorah! Before when I was lying down I just got a good idea for a company, it would be called Get Me Unlost and basically you hire people who are super good at directions like me and people who aren't good and who are lost in their car can call them. These people would be subscribed to the company and have like a little chip in their car for GPS. The people on the other end of the fone would see where they are and tell them where to go to get "unlost". The only thing is I think having a GPS unit in the car may be the better alternative, I don't know, but it's one thing to have a machine tell you where to go, it's another to have people actually looking at maps for you. I guess that's all for now. God bless, Pete | | |
| theres been no heat in mosely for the past 2 days and its really cold.
i have an interview in damien ct for some job i'm unsure of as of right now. The reason im unsure is cuz i sent out like a bajillion resumes/job applications so i don't know what's what nemore, lol. Damien CT is about 40 mins from me, so unless there willing to pay me a lot of money, it's unlikely id trade my bank job for this job.
Also the post office sent my job application back cuz i forgot to fill in a few things, i thought it was simply cuz they didnt need my help. If i could get a job there that would be great.
It's annoying cuz this one place hired me as an ASL interperter and they gave me $50 for 15 minutes of work (translates to $200/hr). They were gonna offer me a job doing office work but then they went back and said there was no positions available, so it's all like, wat the crap and stuff. In the meantime though, I don't really care cuz I am getting experience elsewhere and continuing to study and I know of a few jobs where you can work as an interperter full time which is what I intend on doing once I become professional.
God has been teaching me new things and showing me where he is taking me in life, it's exciting... but scary cuz I don't know what's happening half the time.
In Him,
Pete
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| the past few months have been interesting. People who I thought were my close friends turned out not to be, some left me for reasons based on incorrect assumptions about me, others stopped talking to me for absolutely no reason, or at least they didnt give me one, they simply just stopped talking to me. Whatever the reason I know this, deserting your friends regardless of the reason, is stupid and in the end everyone ends up getting hurt. When this had 1st happened it had made me really sad and i thought about it all the time, now I seem to think about it briefly for a couple of mins about once a week. As much as I do care about the people who deserted me, I can't live my life consumed in a cycle of thoughts that will only destroy me. I learned this lesson once before in a much tougher and emotionally painful situation so I already have learned the right way to respond to it. Other than that, I've made a few mistakes, in certain areas which I won't get into here and I'm getting help for those specific things from counseling services at the skool here. Let's see what else is there to say. Me and tay and maybe Joel (because hes really indecisive) are all gonna be getting an apartment aroudn nyack in may. Were like saving all our moneys in hopes that we can do this. I bought windows vista (the new windows) cuz i was bored of xp. im finding that vista is just as boring however. i got a job at valley national bank in northvale nj which is about 15 mins from the skool however i may not take it cuz i may be taking a job at the post office instead since it pays more, also thinking about applying for a job at the nyack hospital down the road, hmm. Emotionally, i've been actualyl really hapyp cuz I'm drawing in a lot closer to God then I have in a while which is kool. I made a bunch of deaf friends around the area, they are helping me learn American Sign Language tremendously. I don't know what else to say so, God bless and bye -Pete | | |
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